Papa, God.

Many people refer to God as "Heavenly Father", "Our Father which art in Heaven", "Father God" But many people don't esteem Him as Father or the way they esteem Him is in comparison to their natural fathers here on earth which sometimes may not be so great. I'm trying to be as real as I can be on these Blogs so to be honest this subject is one I try to avoid but recently I had to confront myself with this issue.

I don't know when it started to happen but me and my dad slowly but surely begin to disconnect, we lived in the same house but it was like I was cold and hard and he was just there. In my own little heart I felt like as a parent he should have known why I became cold and hard towards him or at least asked and I felt like if he was too prideful to not even care to know why then I wouldn't care to tell him either. So our conversation became menial nothing deeper than surface level. Like I said I don't know when it happens, (when my dad and I's relationship disintegrated) but I do know that it wasn't anything drastic, it was always the little things, the seemingly innocent comments thrown around and majorly the lack of action and then BOOM I wake up one day and I have resentment in my heart towards my dad. 

Do you think that is not going to affect my relationship with my Heavenly Father? Answer: Majorly!

It's not just the resentment but it was the fact that resentment underlying roots were unforgiveness and if Jesus forgave me then I have to learn to forgive others.

I thought I was doing good, that I could just ignore my dad, really ignore the problem and still have a vibrant, fulfilling relationship with God. But no, not so. God is a God of relationship. He perfectly made people to interact, interconnect and intersect with other people. So, if a relationship is in your life that is meaningful to you is failing, you got to check that out because it might be blocking the flow of all that God wants to give you.

Right now I am in the process of learning how to quiet my spirit and soul and sit quietly before God, because sometimes the answer lies in the silence and not the hustle and bustle. I'll tell you how it goes. Remember Live out what God wants you to do today and remember He loves you so very much and wants you to be with Him.

*And Remember to always Laugh Out Loud
Pwendy A.